La vida 'picante' MOVED TO MEXICO!

Long time, no update!

Viva Mexico!

I finally decided to follow my heart. I have moved to Mexico in order to reunite with my ex-boyfriend, JC, mentioned in the previous posts. It was a difficult decision, but I jumped into the cold water. I have been through a lot since the move and finally have a moment to write some of it down. Whoooooo it has been an whirlwand of excitement and sometimes an uphill battle with strong 'nortes' (winds) pushing against you.

JC helped me find an apartment that I could have to myself with a bathroom, internet and cable. Sounds pretty nice, right? It was towards the end, but it required some major adjustments. I did not have water pressure...or water...for the first few days, then I had to get used to the barking dogs, night guards blowing whistles and random 'fiestas' at night. Interestingly enough, as the weather got colder, the night noise also decreased.

Once I was getting used to my room...it flooded. NICE! I woke up with water all over the floor. Fortunately, the landlords helped repair it right away. Got to love Mexican customer service, it is quite excellent for the most part.

With time, my room grew on me, especially once all of the little knicks were repaired. I got to know and recognize each of the barking dogs, each with it's own unique 'cuteness' and character. I saw one dog so much that he would follow me wherever I went, whether it was to do laundry, walk to the bus stop, or go to JÇ's home. I felt like he was my own personal body guard. I called him 'Bolito'. There also was 'Bowser'. He was this terrifyingly huge sheep dog that went crazy whenever you passed his gate. At first, I thought he was very intimidating, but once his family started dressing him up with doggy Christmas sweaters and he would howl like a puppy all day, he did not seem so scary...even though the gate between us was much preferred.

I also got to know my block, the neighborhood 'mini-super' and the 'lavanderia' where the owner was one of the smartest people I talked to. He would discuss religion, global warming and history with me. I even FAINTED there one day. I fell off the stairs to the laundry place and hit my head on the cement. If it were not for the laundry man, who knows if I would be okay today.

However, this room would only be temporary since it was in Xalapa. JC will be doing medical residency in Mexico City, therefore we are moving to the 'big city'.

RUnning out of time, I am nervous about Mexico City since it is so HUGE. Wish me luck!

Failed Long Distance Love

So I feel that I will never get over my ex-boyfriend (the one mentioned in my first post). As soon as I feel that I am moving on from him, he calls me or messages me. It is such an extreme of emotions. I feel SUPER excited when he calls and so happy when we speak, but then I rollercoaster down into a pit of depression when we disconnect the call. I just miss him so much and am so angry about our circumstances. I wish that Mexico was treated like Canada and we could go back and forth between the countries with ease. I just do not know how to move on if we keep speaking, but I also do not want to stop speaking with him because I love him. I wish we could be together. I wish he did not need a visa to VISIT that is impossible to get. It is not fair. I wish I could meet someone else sometimes and move on, but until then I will be stuck on him and the good times we shared.

Eat. Pray. Love.

I was told that I reminded someone of the main character in the movie/book because I am a free spirit.

I feel that now that I am trying to get a job/career I am longing for creativity in my life....

Graduated into a recession

This whole recession has not hit me until these past couple months. I recently graduated from college with a 3.912 GPA (out of 4.0) magna cum laude and am applying to jobs that I did not even have to go to college and borrow loan money for. I feel like the 'campus career centers' are a complete waste of time because they do not help you find a job...they tell you what you already know how to do. Fortunately, I can live at home for the mean time. It's not so bad, I like it here....I just wish I knew what I wanted to do with my life...I am feeling very lost right now. Thank God for the support from my family and friends.

On top of that confusion I desperately miss my boyfriend. To briefly summarize our situation, we met and fell in love when I was living in Mexico (sound like a Soap Opera, right?) and we have been separated ever since my stay there. We got along so great in Mexico and have been through a lot (he crashed while I was there and his mom got hurt too--they are okay). We have been together over a year and basically maintain a Skype relationship, but it is very difficult because he is a full-time medical student and works 24/7 (literally). We try our best to communicate, but it is hard because he is always exhausted and has tons of work to do. On top of that, he was denied his tourist visa to come visit me in the US. That's right, if you are Mexican, it is almost IMPOSSIBLE to come to this country legally, NO WONDER THEY ALL COME HERE ILEGALLY BECAUSE WE DON'T LET THEM COME HERE LEGALLY. I completely understand them now. He cannot even VISIT this country. It only makes our relationship harder because I would LOVE it if he could visit here and meet my family. I can't afford to always go there. They had no reason to turn him down, he is a medical student, his family has enough money to support him, he's very intelligent....why would they say no? Because they want your money and it's easier that way. I think there is something wrong with our system towards the Mexicans.

So looking for a job in a recession and missing my boyfriend who lives in another country that works 24/7 and is not allowed to visit me gets pretty depressing at times. I wish things could be different. I wish Mexico paid higher wages or did not exploit their people because then I would consider moving there. Or I wish I could move there and work for an American company online and with a VoIP phone. I totally would do it and would charge less money even. Why is this so difficult??? They dont even let you do that. I know that people have worse problems, but I wish Mexico and US had better relations or we treated them as we do Canada. I miss him and wish there were a way we could be together. We could write a book on all that we have had to gone through just because I live in the US and he in Mexico.