This whole recession has not hit me until these past couple months. I recently graduated from college with a 3.912 GPA (out of 4.0) magna cum laude and am applying to jobs that I did not even have to go to college and borrow loan money for. I feel like the 'campus career centers' are a complete waste of time because they do not help you find a job...they tell you what you already know how to do. Fortunately, I can live at home for the mean time. It's not so bad, I like it here....I just wish I knew what I wanted to do with my life...I am feeling very lost right now. Thank God for the support from my family and friends.
On top of that confusion I desperately miss my boyfriend. To briefly summarize our situation, we met and fell in love when I was living in Mexico (sound like a Soap Opera, right?) and we have been separated ever since my stay there. We got along so great in Mexico and have been through a lot (he crashed while I was there and his mom got hurt too--they are okay). We have been together over a year and basically maintain a Skype relationship, but it is very difficult because he is a full-time medical student and works 24/7 (literally). We try our best to communicate, but it is hard because he is always exhausted and has tons of work to do. On top of that, he was denied his tourist visa to come visit me in the US. That's right, if you are Mexican, it is almost IMPOSSIBLE to come to this country legally, NO WONDER THEY ALL COME HERE ILEGALLY BECAUSE WE DON'T LET THEM COME HERE LEGALLY. I completely understand them now. He cannot even VISIT this country. It only makes our relationship harder because I would LOVE it if he could visit here and meet my family. I can't afford to always go there. They had no reason to turn him down, he is a medical student, his family has enough money to support him, he's very intelligent....why would they say no? Because they want your money and it's easier that way. I think there is something wrong with our system towards the Mexicans.
So looking for a job in a recession and missing my boyfriend who lives in another country that works 24/7 and is not allowed to visit me gets pretty depressing at times. I wish things could be different. I wish Mexico paid higher wages or did not exploit their people because then I would consider moving there. Or I wish I could move there and work for an American company online and with a VoIP phone. I totally would do it and would charge less money even. Why is this so difficult??? They dont even let you do that. I know that people have worse problems, but I wish Mexico and US had better relations or we treated them as we do Canada. I miss him and wish there were a way we could be together. We could write a book on all that we have had to gone through just because I live in the US and he in Mexico.
